nooodesires | (no subject)

Then what do you remember?

[How does he explain this. How does--]

[No. He doesn't. You don't explain this. He frowns, stares, opens his mouth, and then shuts it again, turning away.]

None of your business.

Thank you for telling me everything I need to know.

You wouldn't believe me anyway.

I'll believe that you believe it.

What does that even mean? "I'll believe that you believe it", so you'll believe that I'm crazy, because I remember a very different life story than what you're telling me is actually true. Don't patronize me.

Why do you have to put such a cynical twist to it? I'll believe you because you believe it, that's all. There's no negative connotations to it.

I'm not-- I've never been human, Eiji. I'm eight-hundred and-- [Rolls his eyes to the ceiling in thought.] --something like twenty-seven years old, assuming these six years of human domesticity you keep referencing come after we were unsealed. I don't even have a physical body like a human does, or a life. I'm a thing. You wanna tell me what part of that sounds like something a run of the mill human is going to openly believe?

But you're human now, right?

I don't--

[Why the questions that make his chest hurt.]

I don't know! How do you gauge that kind of thing? I mean-- I can't.

[Raises his right arm, shakes it a little.]

I actually never thought I'd see the day I can't control what I look like.

Is there anything I can do?

[Looks at him, turns and really actually looks at him, and is quiet for a full minute and a half.]

...tell me who I am, because I'm at the point I don't know if I believe myself anymore.

You're Ankh. We started out as friends for a year and then we started dating after I asked you out. We had a lot of ups and downs but we made it through them together before we decided to move in together.

Friends for a year. On what grounds? How did someone like you end up asking someone like me out.

We met while traveling!

[ he thinks about it a bit before he also adds in ]

You also said yes to me proposing to you.

[ this is a lie, he never asked you that ]

Traveling. That shouldn't surprise me. Were you still homeless at-- what?

We're engaged.

Eng-- [Wheeze.] Engaged? Is that even legal?

Gay marriage has been legalized in a lot of states.

[Let him just reel from this. He's engaged. To Eiji. And human.]

[What?]

[He opens his mouth, makes a few confused bird sounds, and then stands up.]

I. Am gonna go drink that coffee you made.

Okay, I'll go feed the birds right now.

[Excuse him as he staggers directly into the door. And then possibly to the floor.]

. . .

[ time to pick the birb off the floor and help him to the chair where there is coffee waiting for him ]

[Mumbling in a daze about being engaged and some other collection of weird words that definitely don't sound like Japanese.]

[Oh look, coffee.]

Are you going to be alright? Or do I have to manhandle you into going to the doctor?