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[Let him just reel from this. He's engaged. To Eiji. And human.]

[What?]

[He opens his mouth, makes a few confused bird sounds, and then stands up.]

I. Am gonna go drink that coffee you made.

Okay, I'll go feed the birds right now.

[Excuse him as he staggers directly into the door. And then possibly to the floor.]

. . .

[ time to pick the birb off the floor and help him to the chair where there is coffee waiting for him ]

[Mumbling in a daze about being engaged and some other collection of weird words that definitely don't sound like Japanese.]

[Oh look, coffee.]

Are you going to be alright? Or do I have to manhandle you into going to the doctor?

I am not going to a doctor. I'm handling this very well, thank you.

[Hiding behind his coffee.]

This is pretty decent.

I know. I made it the way you like it.

[Quirks his mouth at that.]

...six years, really?

It'll be seven years in a week or so.

[Embeds a hand in the roots of his curls.]

I'm not the sort to apologize, but the fact that I don't remember that time might be what makes me start.

Well, do you still like me?

[He wheezes a vague sort of chuckling sound.]

That's not an admission I woke up prepared to make. But to prevent you from spiraling into a pit of desireless despair, just this once I'll be honest enough to say that even in my own memory I think I always have.

Then I'm okay with it. You're still Ankh and you still like me. I can fill you in on the things you don't remember.

[He nods, huddling into his coffee and closing his eyes.]

It's a lot. And you'd better not internalize things like I remember you did. If my not remembering something bothers you, explain it to me. Don't just...

[Frowns.]

Do whatever it is you do instead.

[He was going somewhere, and then realized he was being sort of compassionate, got embarrassed, and backpedaled. Sorry, Eiji.]

It's not that it bothers me, it's that it makes me worry about you. Bur we can deal with it day by day, okay? If I have any problems I'll tell you. Or I'll just go into your closet and mess it all up to pay you back.